After the week I've had, it was nice to see a loss on the scale especially when I thought I would see a gain. I lost 2.4 pounds for a total of 62.4 pounds in 36 weeks. I had a binge this past week the day I found out that I didn't get the job that I have been interviewing for. I really, really wanted this job and I was really bummed out that I didn't get it. It was going to be a great opportunity for me both professionally and personally but I didn't make the cut. I turned to food for comfort which is something that I haven't done in the past 36 weeks. I let myself wallow for a few days but I think I've snapped out of it. I hope.
It's time to make some decisions so that I stop feeling the financial stress that you go through while being unemployed. It's a total hit to my ego but I need to start thinking with my head instead of with my heart. The next couple of weeks my life is going to go through some changes but I hope that it will pay off in a couple of months.
I didn't work out at all this week and that something that I need to remedy. Tomorrow is the beginning of a new month and I have been thinking of setting some goals for this coming month. I am still aiming to lose 13 pounds in the next month to reach 75 pounds by the end of June so that is part of my motivation.
Now it's time to work on keeping my head up and not let life get the best of me. Things will get better soon.
My goal to break my weight loss trend this week was a total fail. I gained 2.2 pounds. I had a couple of mini binges this week and instead of making a healthy choice after my weigh in, I decided to binge again. I purposely went out and bought junk food. I ate it. I felt like crap afterwards. I didn't even enjoy it.
The past few days I've really struggled. A lot of it has to do with the uncertainty of my job situation. The motivation to keep losing weight and being healthy is gone right now. To be honest, all I want right now is a pint of ice cream and my Sex and the City DVDs. I won't do it but this is how I feel right now.
Don't have much else to say right now besides that I am disappointed in myself.
Lost 2.6 pounds this week for a total of 62.2 pounds in 34 weeks. Whee! In looking at my weight loss process in the past couple of weeks, it seems that I have two good weeks and then a bad one. It's a pattern I hope to break this week.
I am 12.8 pounds away from reaching my end of June goal of 75 pounds. That means that I have to lose on average 2.1 pounds per week. Can I do it? Only time will tell but I will be working hard to reach that goal.
Food wise I did really good this week but my workouts were non-existent. It doesn't help that the weather has been crappy in SF but really that is just a silly excuse. I can and should be doing my Walk Away the Pounds DVDs. I aim to work out three times this week.
I had a great non-scale victory yesterday. It's been about 6 weeks since I bought new jeans and they are already feeling loose. I ended up trying on a smaller size yesterday and they fit. A bit snug but I don't look like a sausage in them so I got them. So excited!
I haven't done one of these in ages but I was reading Gala Darling's blog and decided to post one for this week.
Deborah Lippmann's Superstar - how amazing is this nail polish? The only bad part about it is that the glitter can be a bit of a hassle to remove but it's worth it.
Ricky Martin - what a hottie! I saw his concert last week and his new album has been in heavy rotation. He put on such an amazing show although I wish he had sung for more than 90 minutes. If he comes to a city near you, I definitely recommend it. Currently loving this song called Mas.
I also purchased this shirt at his concert since I like it's message.
Game of Thrones - I had heard about these books but didn't really catch my interest. Now HBO has created a series based on them and I've been enjoying the 4 episodes that have aired. Amazon right now has the 4 book Kindle bundle for $36. I think this may be my summer reading.
Booklending - speaking of Kindle books, I have been using this service for the past month. It's a great way to lend and borrow Kindle books. There are some books that I want to read but don't really want to purchase so it's a win win. I've seen more publishers enable the lending feature so I am hoping that with time more books will become available.
EmilyNoel83 on Youtube - I don't talk about make-up as much as I used to but I still read beauty blogs and watch YT videos. I recently discovered her channel and have been going back to watch some of her old videos. She does tutorials and great product reviews.
Do you ever get on the scale and wonder how the result happened? That was me this past Monday. The past week I had a couple of mini binges and did not workout at all. I was mentally prepared for another gain. When I got my results I was truly shocked. I ended up losing 4.6 pounds. I know that part of that loss was due to the beer gain I had last week but still I had no idea how I lost so much when I barely even tried.
This past week was just a bad week for me mentally. I'm trying really hard to not stress out about my job situation but sometimes it gets the better of me. The mini binges I had weren't too bad because it was not "bad" food but it was still a binge. I lost control of what I was eating. I had no motivation to workout at all.
What I am dealing with right now is that my mind is confused. How do I make myself eat healthier and working out when the week I didn't do too well I lost weight. I know that I should eat better and I know that I should workout. My mind is telling me one thing but I am actually doing something else. It's a total mind f*ck right now.
My goal this week is to stay on track and try really hard to not get comfortable with my weight loss. I want to reach a 60 pound loss next week so I have to lose more than 1/2 a pound. Monday and Tuesday so far I have been successful with my food. I plan on forcing myself to workout at least 3 times this week. I will not let myself get comfortable and I will continue work on being healthy.
I texted that to my friends on Saturday morning on my way to meet them at the baseball game we were going to. Those were my famous last words and the scale sure did show how much fun I had. Even a visit to the porcelain throne & reliving my early 20's did not help with the scale. I was up 3.8 pounds for this weigh in. But I am ok with it. I have been getting stressed more about this whole unemployment situation & I needed to just cut loose. I had a hell of a time & now it's time to get back on track.
I did work out this week and went on several hikes. On Friday, I rediscovered another trail that I knew back when I was in middle school. Back then that trail seemed to last forever when in reality it is only 3 miles. Right now the Bay Area is having some pretty amazing weather so I am trying to take advantage of it.
For this week, I plan on getting back on track with my food and am committing to working out 4 times a week. And my text to my friends this morning was...
What the hell happened this weekend? And when are we doing it again? :)
