You can't change your situation, the only thing you can change is how you chose to deal with it.I read this quote yesterday and I agree with it. However, this is how I felt this morning.
I feel like crying. Maybe I should just let myself. I had a phone interview today with the hiring manager in what seemed to be a great opportunity & the recruiter called me back & told me that I wasn't going to be getting an in person interview. I keep getting my hopes up at these job opportunities. I've probably submitted over 100 resumes to different places and probably gotten 5 callbacks if that. I've never felt so rejected in my life. It's definitely bruising my already busted ego to not get a callback. Fuck, rejection sucks! I don't even want to work out anymore. I just want to go back to bed and sleep. I feel like a failure right now.If you follow me on Tumblr, you would have seen that yesterday I posted that today I was going to go to the gym for the first time in 17 years. I felt really upset this morning & I could've easily dealt with life in a negative way. Instead, I went to the gym with my mom and worked out for close to 90 minutes. I left my frustrations & anger on the exercise machines. I was feeling defeated and while things aren't any different right now, I feel so much better that I did life today rather than stay home and pout.
I went as my mom's guest to see if I wanted to sign up. I don't want to commit to something and then not go especially since I have to be mindful of my spending. I started out on the elliptical & I only survived for about 5 minutes. That thing is a beast! My legs felt like jello after 5 minutes. So ridiculous! But now I have a starting point. I decided to get on the treadmill next. I really enjoyed walking on it. I never thought I would say that. I walked for about 30 minutes because my legs felt all jittery. I got on the the stationary bike and worked out for about 20 minutes. I can't even remember the last time I was on a bike. Damn that was hard work. Since I was waiting for my mom, I decided to get back on the treadmill and walked for another 30 minutes.
I just counted - I applied for 89 jobs this summer. I got one callback - and now, I'm here. I know it's tough to hear because it doesn't make the present any easier, but it *will* happen for you when you least expect it. <3 So glad you enjoyed the gym - it was my saving grace this summer. Stress through the roof has no chance when you step it out on the elliptical or chase it running down the street for miles and miles. :)
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you're feeling down. I know how hard and frustrating job searching can be. Something will come along though, don't get discouraged.
ReplyDeleteThat's so great you went to the gym and have decided to join! So much can be done at the gym with all the different machines and weight area. Looking forward to hearing how it goes. :)
Wow! Check you out at the gym. That's an incredible workout. So pleased you enjoyed it and decided to join. I totally know what you mean about the elliptical, that kills me everytime. I hate going on it but I love the feeling once i'm done hehe.
ReplyDeleteThe gym is a great place to vent out frustration. I remember, two years ago when I was feeling really down about certain things in my life, I signed up for the gym. Today I am still a member and have managed to improve my fitness level so much.
ReplyDeleteI'm really inspired by how you turned around your mood and went and worked out instead of moping.
You go girl! :)