Let's give them something to talk about

I found out that some people in my family in Mexico know that I've lost weight. My mom mentioned to me that one of my aunt's mentioned to her that my weight loss was a topic of conversation among my family. She said that they were very proud of me. Recently a family member gave me a gift to congratulate me on my weight loss and to encourage me to keep going.

I have mixed feeling about these situations. I am happy that they support me. But I don't really talk to my family about my weight issues and I know that I've only talked to a handful of my family members about it. I don't really share this part of myself so openly because I don't want to feel pressured that comes with more people knowing. I put enough pressure myself. Then I wonder what if the next time I see them they don't notice a difference. Will they start judging what I eat and do? I hold myself accountable by using this blog to document my journey but it feels much bigger now that more of my family members know. I think I just have to figure out a good way to deal with the expectations that others may have of me and not let it impact me in a negative way.

Right now that I am living at my mom's, she makes dinner for herself, my cousin (who is living with us for 2 months while going to school, my sister and I. While I enjoy her cooking, it tends to be on something that would use up a lot of my points so I've been making my own dinners instead. It's like it's finally clicked that I have to make myself a priority.

I have been binge free for over a week and I am really proud of myself. All it takes is a bit of planning and I can be successful with this journey. I am continuing to branch out and trying different foods. I made a veggie and bean salad on Monday and it was delicious. It's a very simple recipe and so yummy. I'm already halfway done with my fitness goal for the week and getting ramped up for the 5K on Sunday.