Can't Have Just One...

I'm a binger. It's something that I've known but lately it's been an issue and it's time to work through it. I had a gain last week and it was due to binging. This week was a struggle and I know I would've lost what I gained but I put myself in a couple of situations where I didn't track my food.

To not binge, I have to avoid it completely because once I get a taste I just can't stop. This week has been sort of busy because I have been moving and packing up my apartment. I was eating out and trying to remain as healthy as possible. But put me in front of a basket of chips & salsa and I am doomed. Put a chocolate mousse cake and I just can't have one bite. Even something that's relatively healthy as the mango bars from Trader Joe's I just can't have one. I can't control myself and it pisses me off. Why do I do this to my body?

Now that I am living at my mom's due to my job situation, it's going to be a challenge to not give in to the food that is kept at my house. Just because I can't control myself I can't ask my family to not buy the type of food I can't stay away from. I have this need to understand why it is that I sabotage myself this way. I know that I am worth it so why do I give in? My goal for this week will be to take it one day at a time.